My second audio work(redoing)

Latest tracks by fakedneilsen

My second work is as same as first one, so I re- upload it. It is a practice of orchestra instruments.

My audio work

Hiroko the Song by fakedneilsen

I did sound-effect story. It is a powerful emotion affected by sports.

My visual works

I made three four- panel cartoons. These are my visual work assignments. Firstly, I wanted to make satire comic like newspaper's satirical cartoon. But, I think toondoo is unsuitable for in your face expression. All characters and sceneries are too cute to satirize. Therefore, I changed my plan again.   I made them in toondoo. I hoped that I put the little prince in the last panel of "Desert". However, I don't know how to install outside characters. This angel is an inevitable compromise. It is a disappointing point.
My problem is that I have no idea about my audio work even now.

My video work

I made a slide show as my video assignment. It was made by toondoo. Slide show was made by Flickr. I had trouble making characters in limited installed characters.
I shall be happy to be of pleasure to you.

I am sorry to say....

I have to change my video plan because of time schedule and lack of my computer literacy.

My new plan is progressing on ToonDoo. How many pictures should I make incase of digital storytelling.

I changed my visual plan because I understood that the cause of global warming is not only discharge CO2, but also other causes such as methane, greenhouse gases. Therefore, I suggest new plan.

1: Japanese people get angry with American beef because US does not examine all cattles nevertheless young cattle took BSE. "Why does not US government examine all cattles? We never want to buy American beef anymore!"

2: Japanese people get angey with Chinese freezed gyoza with agricultural chemicals. "Why does not Chinese government keep surveillance over food factory severely?" We never want to buy Chinese food products anymore!"

3: After Fukushima nuclear crisis, many countries prohibited Japanese food products. Japanese people cry out, "It is a damage caused by rumors!" although they do not eat food products produced in  Fukushima, Miyagi, Iwate, Ibaraki, and Chiba Prefecture ever since Mar 11. What is a wait- and see way of thinking, isn't it?

These are my current visual plan.

A cutting idea and an excuse for professor

James Bondgoldeneye's fabulous work promoted me to make a satire as my visual work.

My idea is : people who insist loudly anti- nuclear power generation stand on the North Pole. Polar bears which nearly drown say, "Please forget the danger of global- warming!" However, people do not notice polar bears at all.

Please do not misunderstand me. I do not hate digital storytelling. I do not like example works such as "Letters for me in 20 years old", and "The first day that my daughter can ride a bicycle".

Quotation from "Inside My Glass Doors"

I am depressed at present (;´ρ`) . To tell the truth, I have no idea about my future( further???) work. I remembered my favorite essay chapter 33 of "Inside My Glass Doors" written by Natsume Sōseki in 1915. I firstly this essay when I was a junior high student, but my reaction never has changed for almost 20 years although I thought aging brouht me various knowledge of way of living.

"Since I live among the human beings here below, I cannot resolve to isolate myself completely. I do have to have dealings with other people for one reason or another. New Year greetings, business in progress, comparatively delicate problems: despite leading a secluded life I find it difficult to avoid them.

Am I to take everything  people tell me literally and give their gestures and words the meaning they seem to have? If I did not give enough thought to this naive temperament that has been mine from birth, I would from time to time be duped by people from whom deceit would not be expected. I am thus dogged by constant mockeries and gibes. I the worst cases, I myself experience unbearable humiliation.

But could I then decide that other people were all arrant liars and decline from the outset to pay attention or give any credence to their words? Could I even merely assume the opposite of their words to be the truth, regarding myself as intelligent on that account and thus finding a haven of peace? I should thus risk misinterpreting other people. Furthermore, I should have to be prepared, from the outset to face the possibility of committing a frighful mistake. And the inevitable consequence of this attitude would be that sometimes I would have to be brazen enough to insult an innocent person, failing which the logic of my position would not hold up.

If I have to decide on one or the other of these attitudes, I once more find myself tormented by doubt. I do not wish to confide in anyone who is bad. But nor do i wish to cause hurt to anyone who is good. The people with whom I come in to contact are not all malicious-nor are they all good people. My attitude must therefore vary according to the people with whom I am dealing.

This variation is necessary for everybody and is also practiced by everybody. But can one really proceed along a decline uniform line where no error is permitted, in perfect accord with the other person? This, for me, is the key question.

My rancor apart, I remember, not without bitterness, how many people have deceived me in the past. At the same time, I feel that, on several occasions, instead of accepting the words and actions of the other people without thinking twice about it, I have deliberately interpreted them twice about it, I have deliberately interpreted them in such a way as to arose something akin to humiliation in the other person.

My attitude towards other people in governed in the first place by what has been my experience hitherto.
Then it is also affected by circumstances and the environment. Finally- and this is ambiguous- some little part is also played by innate intuition. Thus I am sometimes duped by other people and sometimes it is they who are duped by me, while on rarer occasions I assess them correctly.

Now when I refer to "what has been my experience hitherto", it would seem to vast and yet in reality  it is very restricted. When one transposes to a certain part of society an experience that has been frequently repeated in another, it often becomes totally ineffective. I have referred to "circumstances" and to "environment", but since there are infinite variations, they are not only limited in their application but also, if one fails to take this into account, become useless. In most cases, moreover, there is neither sufficient time material available to enable these data to be taken into account.

All this induces me, when judging others, to keep my intuition to the fore, although I do not whether or not it exists, and it is any case very uncertain. Furthermore, I have not usually had opportunity of ascertaining objectively whether my intuition has discerned matters clearly or not. Here again, doubt constantly settles like a fog over my heart and causes it to suffer.

if in this world an omniscient and omnipotent god existed I would kneel down before him and ask him to endow me with an intuition so clear that not a shadow of doubt would remain and to deliver me from these torments. Or I would ask him to transform all those impenetrable people with whom I am faced into transplant and honest beings and thus to give me a happiness such that my soul and theirs would be in perfect harmony. At the moment I am so stupid that there is only one way open: I am deceived by others, and my distrust is so great that I cannot accept my fellow beings. I am at the peak of disquiet, obscurity and discomfort. If this is to persist throughout my lifetime, how unhappy I must be!"



I read again and again this essay when I cannot stand the idea of facing my psychological crises. I have much in the way of new material these days. What am I to do about my work?? My former ideas are divorced from reality, I gradually understand. I thought I would be able to make an animation film. But...